To the past

• I dont take you as a regret or a mistake,
  I know you were a lesson,
  kinda like my blessing to take nothing for granted,
  Now I can say I had that n been there,
  I know the feeling,
  Outside I smiled.
  Inside I was killing what you made,
  So I could move on,
  No longer will I linger,
  Your past is done,
  My future just begun,
  I dream at night of if you didnt n wouldnt of,
  And wake up to I should of n maybe if I,
  You held me back from falling,
  You hold me back from falling,
  You will not be forgotten,
  You marked to deep,
  The ones I love marked me the deepest,
  I trusted the most,
  Was it on purpose,
  Or was it just ment to be,
  I cry silently from it,
  I cry out my trust,
  So I dont trust that much,
  I adore from a distance n try to figure out what game is this,
  I hope I win,
  My heart cant afford another lose,
  It'll just fall apart,
  Leavin my soul empty and cold,
  I swallow you whole,
  Cause what goes in must come out,
  I need you out,
  Please, I'm begging,
  Free me from this fiasco,
  What do I have to do to leave you?
  Did you ever love me?